In august this year my great grandma died. That was 4 months ago. I Havent thought about her death in months, since today.
I was planning my 13th family party with my mom and she was explaining how the whole family would be there. All the sudden I thought ” My grandma isnt gonna be there. She wont see me turn into a teenager.” And I started bawling my eyes out. Why?
Also I hate myself about this. Because When i found out she died, I cried flat out for 3 hours. Then the next day I cried a bit and the next day too. And that was it. I didnt even cry at the funeral. And i HATE myself for it.
Help me ?
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Everyone has their own ways of coping with deaths. You had let it all out and then shoved the emotions down. When you started to think about it it came back up and you felt it. You also mentioned that you are turning into a teenager- hormones play a big role on our emotions. Emotin can happen without us controlling it, so don’t feel bad about not crying for you grandma. : )
it’s normal, some things will bring back memories. your hormones are in an upheaval too.
You are normal. Grief works like that. It is normal to experience sadness at times when your loss occurs to you the most, like as a family gathering , holiday, or birthday celebration approaches. Often, a person’s funeral is held before the concept of loss sets in. It doesn’t mean that you will always grieve that way. Your Grandma would not want you to hate yourself. You did nothing wrong.
Admit always what you truly feel & realize ANYWAY is ok because people grieve & process in differing ways