Recently, I’ve just been feeling like a total failure in everything. I can’t express to anyone how i’m feeling, no one listens. This year, both of my nans have passed away, one passed away last week and my whole family is concentrating on that, understandably, but I feel totally isolated from it all, especially because i’m not going to her funeral, and everyone else is.
I act happy at school, just be ‘myself’, I only do that because it’s impossible to say how i’m feeling, whenever I do someone I know tries to trump that, my friend is having problems at home too, and I don’t think she realises that she’s making MY life harder by competing with everything I say, and do. I’ve tried talking to her before now, but she just gets angry and denies it all.
I can’t talk to any of my teachers because i don’t trust them enough, and the only teacher who I do trust is my headteacher, who was my form tutor in year 7, but recently she’s been ignoring me.
I can’t concentrate in class or my homework, and the other day I was fighting back tears when my teacher was shouting at me, and I just wanted to shout back at her. Everyone seems to have their lives planned out, everyone is good at something, and all I have is this dread which is comsuming me. I pretend to be fine. But i’m not, i’ve tried killing myself before now, and I would have, but I just lack the guts…
How can I stop feeling like this?
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go get councilling
This sounds like you are suffering from some form of depression. I think you’re first port of call will be your doctor. I know going to the doctor about depression can seem a little daunting but they will understand and will make you feel comfortable enough to talk to them… they can prescribe many different kinds of medication to make life seem a little less “dreading” (and this medication does work)
Other than that… if you feel the need to punish your body then do it in the way of exercise!!
go out and get a run…take in some fresh air….
a long walk when you feel down will work wonders!! I know its hard to get motivated but it will help i promise.. In fact right now, this second go out for a walk…at least an hour and i guarantee you will feel noticeably better.
volunteer to help others…. notice the people around you that are worse off and do something to help them
soon you will realise you are in charge of your own happiness.
good luck
x
Before u do anything stupid remember it cud b worse. Now after uve accepted that. U need to understand that life has challenges. And the harder the challenge that stronger the heart. I dunno if ur religious. But god wouldn’t have thrown this challenge at u if he didn’t think u cud handle it. I’ve heard that the better the person the harder his life is. U sound pretty young which makes me wonder. How do u kno ur not good at ANYTHING. u ***** have possibly tried everything in the world. There is no such thing as a talentless person. U seem like a teen so don’t worry. Every teen has his problems. Even if his life was perfect till then. When he reached his teens that’s when it stopped being perfect. U said urself Bo one knows u have problems. Amd that u hide it. How do u kno others don’t have the same problem? There is nobody out there that is completly happy with themselves. Even if that’s wat it looks like from the outside. I can promise u that almost every person that has reached around ur age has felt the exact sane thing as u r feeling now. So don’t worry. Ur not alone. And u can go seek counseling. I kno it sounds scary
I didn’t want to go at first either but it helped me a lot
Feel better and good luck!