This photo is a face who is suffering severe psychosis and is in the height of post traumatic stress disorder … they were diagnosed about six to ten months before this photo.
This image is of a face who has a mind and the mind is in the spirit realms at this point when the photo was taken.
God has a firm hold of me in this photo and I am still going through a spiritual ritual where I am pulling the sword of truth out of my own body and God is also removing it over and over again.
Now … in this psychosis … I am also seeing this giant sized being who has the ability to breathe his own breath …. as in hurtle his breath … up and down my own throat as I try to breathe.
I find i am trapped in a mirror maze?
I find that the god has stunned me and shocked me and made me look like this?
Why do I look like this when I am so sick?
The doctors say i was “highly elevated” …. but I was dying and fighting for my life and almost gave up and thought about planning my own funeral … yet my face says “happy”
Where am I and why is God so freaking different to anything anybody ever said?
So I do not want to commit suicide but, Insted i have a deathwish.
I have a few people that I would hate myself if I randomly got hit by a bus or had died of natural causes or something. They mean so much to me and I would just feel so crappy if I didn’t tell them what they mean to me. I often think of me randomly dieing and them being at my funeral crying.
But you see if I chose to kill myself, no one could take MY life away. If it’s your life I think you should be the only one that can take it away. And you know your about to die and you can do everything you ever wanted to do, tell anyone anything. Then hopefully die without any regrets.
I’m not planning on committing suicide anytime soon, when Im older. This way I don’t think this would nessicarly be a bad thing, like everyone says suicide is. Because you would die happy, and you wouldn’t be doing it out of sadness either.
Does this make sense to anyone. Don’t lecture/preach to me about why suicide is bad either. Just tell me your opinion on this
Ok his situation is that he is a single father with full custody. His ex has her son 1-2 weekends a month, supposed to be every other weekend but they usually get out of one weekend a month. Now she is handicapped from an accident 3 years before he finally asked for a divorce. He is living with his parents who are in their 70’s so they can get his 10 yr-old son to school and after school because my bf leaves for work before his son goes to school and gets home after his son 4 days a week.
We live 800 mi apart and met because I travel for work and was working at the refinery where he works. I have gone to visit specifically visit and not work about 4 times beyond that we’ve gotten lucky and I’ve had to work every 3 months there. But last summer I had asked if he could find time to come meet my grandmother before she passed, however, that didn’t happen. At the time he said he would come up with a time to visit and unfortunately he couldn’t come down for her funeral due to his son being in school.
And he has made plans for his vacation this summer to go with/take his parents to the place where they went on their honeymoon.
Frankly I’m tired of being the one to visit. I’m tired of him using his son as an excuse to not visit. I tried to get him to visit me from sept-nov in wyoming close to really great scenic areas. He tried to use his son as an excuse and I said bring him! His son and I are ok together. All I wanted was a weekend because that was the longest I was away from family and friends and I wanted someone familiar and I missed them.
I’m getting the to the point where I don’t know if it’s worth it, but don’t want to give up someone I love but don’t know if he loves me. He says he does, but I had to force that out of him. I feel like I’m the one who always pushes this relationship through. How do I find out if he wants to be with me? I want to move closer to him to spend more time with him and jr, but not if he doesn’t want to be with me in a more permanent manner.
Anybody have any advice or experience to share?
hello. my plot is about a man experiencing auditory hallucinations and creates characters to silence the voices in his head. the entire novel is written in dialogue which is to play out the illusion of having an auditory hallucination for the readers. the main characters are Travis,Sandy,Andrea,Emma and Jacob. each take the initiative in creating utopia a silent world starting with Andrea. Travis is extra special as he is a mental patient suffering from an auditory hallucination where he communicates with the unknown MC who created him so essentially God who in a way is the reader and the MC uses Travis to orchestrate the characters actions. also keep in mind that the characters don’t exist when they aren’t talking to each other so the aim is to keep them apart. i am thoughtfully planning out the story and i have spent two years developing my writing style and fleshing out my characters but the biggest risk is it being written entirely in dialogue but to clarify it is not script style i repeat NOT script style. also it’s called “Sustaining Silence.” sorry if i confused you and don’t steal my idea.
my idea for the opening: so i wanted to start with random voices saying things for one page and ending it with someone saying “die,die,die.” it’s only one page and it’s only there to make the goal stand out. for the next chapter i introduce Emma at her mother’s funeral and the second line is “die, die,die” but it sounds funnier because she’s interrupting her aunts emotional heartfelt, eulogy because she’s playing black ops on her phone.
1.what do you think of this idea?
2. what do you think of the opening? any better ideas?
3.would you read it?
4.do you like the title?
5. do you think this idea is too risky for agents or publishers to be interested in it?
other notes or comments
thanks you guys
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